HOPE does not disappoint...

Right now I am curled up in bed while my family is sitting around the table for dinner. Unfortunately. 

I'm not sick. I'm not hiding from them. I'm hiding from the pain. 

For those who want a backstory on my pain, you can find it here and here. 

Long story short, I've had chronic pain since May 2013. After my youngest was born last summer, my pain decreased quite a bit. But it has been creeping back up. And I'm struggling. 

I'm trying to be very thankful for the time I have had with less pain. There have only been a few chunks of time the past 6.5 years that I've had lower pain, and I truly am thankful for them...but its still hard.

Its hard when you hope and dream of something, and it doesn't come. I'm sure you all get that. I'm sure you have all been there. I know my situation is not unique.

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I'm scheduled to finally have surgery to fix the mistakes of the last surgery. It will happen at the end of this month. I'm a bit afraid. Recovery is supposed to be a little rough. And there are no guarantees that it will be successful.

But in spite of all my worries and fears, I am hopeful.

Don't give up hope, mama! Sometimes it's the only thing that keeps us going. Whatever you are going through, I hope you will be through it soon, and you will be victorious. The hope will give you victory.

Lots of love, 

Lee