Confession time: I’ve been acting like a big baby.
You probably already know that though, you’ve been reading my blogs.
If I pray every morning for God to direct my day, and then get freaked out and stressed because I have a fussy baby to hold and can't get my dishes done, am I really trusting in Him? The answer is a very sheepish, "No...".
God knew that my baby was going to be a clingy little guy. He knew that Jo would have a hard time sleeping on his own. He provided me help in my husband and older children so I would not get completely overwhelmed, but He also knew that my baby would want me most of the time. Was God plotting evil against me? Was His plan to torture me by not allowing me to do the things I want to do?
Ridiculous questions, right?
God sees the big picture, mama. I know He has a plan for the hard things that we go through. His heart is for you, not against you. So I'm going to challenge you, dear mama, and myself, to look for the blessings in our circumstances that might be a part of the big picture.
I can find one in mine right now: I have experienced reduced pain since Jo was born. Part of that is probably because he stretched my hernia area out (possibly releasing one of the trapped nerves that was causing pain) and the other part is probably because I've been spending so much time sitting and laying with him.
So look for the silver linings, mamas. God can bring good out of anything, He is that good.