A Giant Hole
It’s been almost a month since I posted about my friend passing. It was been a whirlwind of a time for me: we had a trip out of town, we got sick, my dad had a really scary week of bad health, we got a lot of yard work done, and we completely flipped around the front rooms of our house. Lots of ups and downs, very busy and exhausting. And then I went to my friend’s memorial service today…
I’m honestly surprised that I am feeling just as sad now about her passing as the day I found out. I just miss her so much! The family and friends that made it to her service completely filled the room. I"m sure there were more who wanted to come who could not make it.
It was very touching to hear all the stories from people during the sharing time. There was a resounding theme to all of them: she knew how to love well.
One story took place when she was in high school. The man who shared the story was having a really rough time and my sweet friend found him where he was hiding behind the school and just sat there with him. Didn't say anything, just sat beside him and loved on him. He is a combat veteran and has experienced many things in his life and that memory is one that he has thought of many times. Just loving on people is powerful stuff!
I think the reason I am so touched by my friend's passing is because of all the things we have in common. We both come from families that have lived in this area for a long time. Neither of us is very "successful" by the world's standards. We are both mothers. We both love Jesus.
I just want so much to be what she has been: I want to love people well. She wasn't perfect by any means, but at the end of my life I want people to say that they knew love because of me, in spite of my flaws. That is the only accomplishment that I am aiming for.
Because that is the most important thing, mamas.
So this is just a simple reminder that the simple lives we lead have a really big impact on the people around us. The love you pour out on your kids, spouse, family, friends, and even strangers makes a difference. I just left a whole room full of people who can attest to that.
You can make a difference in your world, mama. Live your life so that you leave a big hole when you leave this world. I know my friend did. Nothing can take the place of her sweet smile.